I was Highly interested about the subject called "Psychology" From childhood. Once I wrote a journal about myself. I felt depressed most of the time in 2010. I sent it to some of my close friends. One of them was Arpaita. She is a psychology student. She got that hard copy from any of my close friends. Later she praised a lot about myself on Facebook. I don't know what was in it to be praised. Even she gave it to some of her friends, and they liked it. Being a non-psychology student, how could I express those feelings and explained it in my own way, that was a surprise to them. Not only once, Arpaita praised me several times for the article. In that article, I was talking about my disease. My first doctor, who is an eminent neuropsychologist, Dr. Jay Ranjan Ram, diagnosed my illness as Major Depressive Disorder. Actually, when you are in bipolar depression mood, it's not so easy to diagnosis that you are suffering from bipolar for sure. The same happened to me. It was not Major Depressive Disorder. I wrote in my journal and predicted my disease like Schizophrenia.

Later came to know that i'm suffering from bipolar disorder. I saw in a prescription of another doctor; he mentioned BPMD at the top left corner of prescription. It then stroke my mind that- it must be a bipolar mental disorder. I felt broken when I came to know that this disease is not curable completely, but you can control it by following some guidelines. When i said to my mum, she said- even the common diseases like blood sugar, blood pressure are not completely curable. If you are suffering one of them, you have to take medicine and follow guidelines by the doctor for a lifetime. Yeah, that is quite true.
I Wish People Knew About Bipolar Disorder
In my childhood, The Strange Case Of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde was one of my favorite novels ever by Robert Louis Stevenson. I read that book in the Bengali version. Later I purchased the original book in English and kept it in my collection. The book was published in 1886. just imagine, he wrote that book so many years ago, and now even bio-scientists are keep researching to cure bipolar disorder permanently.

Dr. Henry Jekyll was suffered from Bipolar Mental Disorder. At the end of the story, Dr. Jekyll committed suicide. This novel reflected a high influence on my mind. If you know a little bit about bipolar depression, there are two phrases, that's why it is called bi-polar. Two poles are there. Once is depression, and another is mania; Dr. Jekyll was in the depression state, and Mr. Hyde (another side of Dr. Henry Jekyll) was suffering from mania state.

While Dr. Jekyll felt sad for all of his works he did as Mr. Hyde, Dr. Jekyll was depressed, thoughtful about his future. On the other side, Hyde beaten people; even he killed a member of parliament with a stick. And he got a cruel, demonic joy while doing those. I have a Prone to imagination very much. I thought if a film was made upon this novel, I wanted to play the role of Dr. Henry Jekyll.  At that time, I was just like a normal boy, who studied probably in class 11 or 12. there was no sign of bipolar disorder in me.

Later, I was diagnosed as a bipolar mental disorder victim. The brain plays a major role in our body. Still, we are too much conscious about the physical disease and ignore mental health. We hate those people who are suffering from mental disorders. I will request them to watch a Hindi movie named "Dear Zindagi." People laugh if they hear someone who has a mental illness. They call him mad. For your kind information, mad people are a smaller part of psychological patients. Not all of them are mad. They are just suffering from a mental disorder. In Dear Zindagi, Shah Rukh Khan (as a role of Dr. Jahangir Khan) said- whenever we are suffering from physical illness, we inform all about our disease. But when we are suffering from mental illness, shhh... don't tell anybody. What the hell, man!

In the USA, the UK, Canada, Australia, or other Europian countries- they are very much aware of mental health. In a USA research, the researchers found one out of five has been suffering from depression. They are developed countries. In a country like India, which is still developing, we were always lag behind. People are not aware or don't care about mental health. If we keep continuing the don't care attitude, we have to pay for this!

Mental disorder has been found in a glamorous industry like Bollywood too. I will tell you about another bipolar victim- he is Yo Yo Honey Singh. From an article published on Indiatimes (Times Of India), Yo Yo Honey Singh stated- "This is the first time I am talking about it as I want my fans to know what happened to me. Nobody knows about this, and I wanted to tell the world myself, not through a spokesperson. The last 18 months were the darkest phase of my life, and I wasn't in a state to talk to anyone. I know there were rumors that I was in rehab (for drug overdose), but I was in my Noida house throughout. The truth is I was suffering from bipolar disorder. It went on for 18 months, during which I changed four doctors, the medication wasn't working on me, and crazy things were happening,' he said, pausing, but determined to reveal more. 'I must confess that I was bipolar and an alcoholic, which aggravated the condition." Eighteen months were the darkest period, can you imagine? Even it may come again in his life, no guarantee. Cause it's not fully curable. If you never have bipolar disorder, you will never realize how worst the disease is! One more thing I have to mention here- alcohol is strictly prohibited for the bipolar victim, but Honey Singh keeps taking alcohol regularly.

Not only Yo Yo Honey Singh, popular actress Alia Bhatt, Deepika Padukone are also victim of depression (not bipolar depression, mind it). Deepika said in an interview of vogue magazine that- "The word that best describes my experience of depression is a struggle. Every second was a struggle. I felt exhausted the whole time." She also talked about how depression is misunderstood by people. She said, "People confuse it with being a bit sad. A male star said recently that he didn't have the luxury to be depressed. As if depression is a choice!"

Other days, I write about tech stuff, my experience of a high-end camera, premium smartphone. If you check at the home page, you will find a few articles (10 articles) about Tiktok, the latest trend. I also love to read books. I have shared a picture of some of my books related to my passion or profession before. But today, I will tell you about some books about psychology. Previously i mentioned that I have the book- the strange case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde in my collection. Apart from this, I have a few books about psychology. Unfortunately, All of them are Bengali books. the author's name is Partha Chattopadhyay. one of them is- "How do you identify the nature of a people."

Inspiration is also categorized in psychology. Previously I mention Usaamah Siddique and Imran Uddin as my inspiration. I have more inspirations like Martin Garrix, Justin Bieber, Cristiano Ronaldo, Shah Rukh Khan etc. I wrote an article before- How I motivate by my inspirations.

Satyajit Ray is one of my inspirations and probably my first inspiration. He was quite expert about Child psychology. Whenever Ray worked with child actors like Siddhartha Chatterjee (54 years now), he could handle them very nicely, played ludo with them. He could think about something as a child's perspective. Here is an interview with Siddhartha Chatterjee, it's in Bengali. If you know Bengali, you will get a crisp idea about "psychologist" Satyajit Ray.

Criminal psychology is also an interesting part of psychology. I read about criminal psychology in a thriller book, written by a Russian author named "Fiodor Dostojewski". the book's name is "Crime And Punishment"—an outstanding novel. Here the author mentioned a line- People fell ill after a crime. Even criminal wants to shout to tell the entire story of his crime. Fear of conscience. Guilty feeling. It's very dangerous. Even more dangerous than a crime.

Though Satyajit Ray was my favorite writer in childhood, later in adulthood, it was changed. Now my favorite writer is late Humayun Ahmed. I read his novel for the first time when I was reading in class 11 or 12. The book is written in Bengali, named- "Chole Jay Bosonter Din". In translate- Golden Days Are Passed By! After reading the novel, I felt the writer has a great concept of human psychology. Later I came to know that psychology is one of his favorite subjects, and he has an extensive collection of psychology books. Anyway, no more now. If you have any questions about this article. don't hesitate to ask me. And if you like this article and find it share-worthy, kindly share it with your friends and relatives via Twitter, Facebook, or WhatsApp. Sharing buttons are below the post. Bye for now. Keep reading other posts.